Those that when you meet them, the 1st question that pops out from their mouth is — Are you married?  I mean this question is so valid when asked by a single and rich guy. But what about those that ask just for the fun of it ? And i’m talking about the aunties, the already married and thinks their married life is so perfect? and those that think the reason that i’m still single now is because there’s some weird things going on with me.

Hello? Does it even matter a shit  if i’m single or married to you? If i’m single, my life doesn’t matter to you anyway? And what is the difference once i’m married? Or does that mean you are going to strike lotto by then? Uhh?? On the other hand, when i see my office is flooded with married people, i somehow think these people are weird. What is so great about getting married anyway? Just to fulfil the shit saying — ” Oh, just so that when you get old,you have a companion”?  Absolutely fuck that! Oh, so now you are talking my destiny to me uhh ??

I never thought of getting married for as long as my life grants me. Unless by the end of the day, i will be able to find a guy that i absolutely think is the right one, and that i think i don’t mind to spend the rest of my life with him. Otherwise getting married to me is just a fairytale. Or, i could get married just for the sake of getting married and file for divorce a day later. Just like what many celebrities are doing. ( And i’m not saying im one, just what they do really inspire people sometimes.)

I don’t know if it’s the society or what, people here find it super fuckingly weird when they see that you are not married after a certain age.  Too bad the society doesn’t have a limit as to what age i should be getting married,  so what are you going to do about that ? The reason why people think a person is weird not getting married after a certain age is because of some fuckers who started this whole dilemma.

 I don’t know who that fucker was, but…..thinking that getting married and being married is such a wonderful thing ?? Well, you better think again.

There are somehow too many examples around me, telling me, getting married is such a wrong choice in some cases. Some people get married because people around them are telling them to or they just cannot take the peer pressure. And some, for the sake of money? fame? or they couldn’t resist the itch and to get pregnant before they are married. There are  many reasons, some which i don’t even know off.

But whatever the reason may be, i don’t care. Most importantly i know that i’m now single and happy. I mean what else matter than that ?

Let me tell you a story.

I got a primary school mate, which unfortunately i still keep in touch with, said to me the other day — Chloe, do you know how old are u already?? why don’t you get married?? I mean if you delay for another few more years, you might not even have babies.  Oh man….how i wished i could just say to her — FUCK YOU! Are you cursing me now ?? I never said i wanna get married let alone having babies! You MORON! You can have as many as 100 babies in your lifetime, or during the period where you are still married to your moron husband, but can you please leave my life alone???? You get what i mean now?? People here just CANNOT, i repeat CANNOT leave your life alone. Where there is a chance or no chance @ all, all they wanna do is to pierce into your life. PIERCE.

How are you suppose to shake away all these society morons? Is there a way ?? Ok, what about i put it this way? For those that would like me to get married so much, i really don’t mind if you morons would like to sponsor me my wedding reception, my wedding gowns ( notice the s ??? as one cannot just wear one gown throughout the whole reception) my wedding accessories, church ceremonies…..and most importantly…MY HONEYMOON!!! Well, if those morons can sponsor all these….i really don’t mind to get married just to fulfil the morony wishes. If not ??? Just fucking shut your mouths up.

And there was a time where i was shopping with mum and one of her friends came up and talk to my mum….and then half way through the conversation, that old aunty came out with a question — Have you got any grandchildren yet ? Really, count that aunty lucky that i’m on a good mood that day….otherwise i would have just shout @ her saying : ” If i tell you how many grandchildren my mum has, how much money are you gonna give me? “  And i would like to see how piss she is going to get! hehehe. I’m not saying you cannot ask questions, but ask some logical questions can ?? Like ” how are you these days? you are looking good, or it’s so nice to see you again. ” Get it ? Duh.

I think i’m somehow getting addicted to this topic, oh why do i want to start this topic? Now i just cannot shut my own mouth!! hehehe……

Let me tell you another funny story. My secretary, let’s call her Ms D told me the reason that she got married is because she don’t wanna end up like my boss’s secretary who is 40+ and still single. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ? She got married not for the sake of whether or not she loves her husband but because she wants to prove to people that she actually can get married too! How absurd is that ? And now, she’s complaining about her marriage everyday. She call her husband ” Her Housemate” . There you go. I mean before she got married, she’s having all these kinda fairytale like thinking about the marriage, and she told me many times now, she thinks life after marriage is so much different from life before marriage. There you go again.

And about the issue of ” too old and not being able to have babies?” ….hehehe be prepared, i’m gonna shout again. Is there any statistics? And do you guys know a granny @ some places, can’t remember was it India or some other places got pregnant @ the age of 75 or something ??? Tell me about too old not having babies. Tell me about it!

One of my male colleague ( luckily not in the same department as me)…i was so unfortunate to bump into him, he said ” Ohh…can i join you guys for lunch?” I mean i cannot say ” Fuck off ” Right?? So we sat down and ate our lunch. Then out of the blue he pop that fucking question again — ” when are u getting married?”  I was thinking to myself — Here we go again.  I asked him ” What is the purpose of you asking ? You wanna go after me kah? “  Then he smile @ me revealing his teeth with all the veges and meat stuck on it….” No…i was just thinking if you get married too late, later you wanna have babies how ?” FUCK MAN. I told him, ” You don’t know nowadays there are many ways to get pregnant kah? as long as you have money, you wanna have 10 babies @ one go also no problem. ” I thought that is going to shut him up…but hell no…he continued with me : ” no…no…..that is not going to work…” Then i cannot tahan i had to shoot him directly saying : ” Have u ever given birth before? Don’t act like as if you know all about pregnancy.” And that surprisingly…can shut his fucking mouth up!!! Don’t you just hate people like that ??? again the word –PIERCE.  Oh him btw, still hangs out with one of the married girls which he love for many years…but in the end the groom is not him!!! Oopss!!!

And then there were some really annoying half aunty half granny typo person, if you know what kinda person i’m referring to. When you greet them whole-heartedly, all they know is to ask you– Married already?? And when you tell them no….the way they look @ you is as if you’ve stolen something from her smelly closet that kinda look. Know what i mean ?? Yeap, fuck these people.

So yeah my conclusion is— i’m happy being SINGLE and NOT MARRIED! And stop interfering into my life you MORONS! try to ask me the — ” WHEN ARE U GETTING MARRIED” question again, there’s no guarantee i won’t spit on you! yay yay!!

And what can you do about me being happy and single???

Oh i know….you can come and proposed to me with a 5 carat diamond ring.

Fuck hell no.

As the title says…… i seriously got nothing to blog @ the moment….. life’s been pretty boring….but don’t worry..i’ve been squeezing my brain real hard….hopefully i will be coming up with something interesting soon!!!

Stay tuned folks!!! I mean like really stay tuned ok ??  hehe

Great day guys!!

If  parents can have one single wish for their kids, i think they will wish their kids to have a life like mine. Oh wait, i’m not saying i’m such a role model for the young kids these days. I’m basically claiming how BORING, yes the big B is my life.

Am i timid ? Am i shy ? I basically don’t know what’s wrong with me. Perhaps i’m kinda anti-social. And you know that’s a big word. Being anti-social after having to work for so many years? U must be kidding me ! But then again, what if i tell you i’m just plain LAZY ? All the woo haa & the hee haa is just not my cup of tea. I mean i used to love clubbings, it’s almost like if i missed out a Friday nite, my life just cannot go on ( What was i thinking?). I mean it wasn’t all that bad…hey  fishing rich and handsome guys….which girl don’t enjoy that? BUT….i always ended up with a bucket full of  ” Heh-bi ” you know what that means? ” heh-bi” = small prawns, and once they are cooked, they disappeared.

I mean, in a small town like this, what thing possibly would you be craving for? Listen up, for the more “decent” typo person, we have the cinema ( which is dirty and smelly, sometimes i wonder will there be any “left-over” sperm grueling on the stools? Get real! ), a rather “special treat” to a once in a while ice-blended drinks from Coffee bean, or caffeine digging @ Starbucks , shopping once in a while in a dogie fashion house, ( when i say dogie, it’s really dogie. I don’t know what kinda fucking fashion sense people have here.) Sorry folks, i can hear sentences like ” Then what the fuck are you still going there?” The sad truth is, there is no other fucking places to go ! Thank God for places like MNG…….and ….oh….Sorry, there’s only MNG. Surprisingly people here can take MNG!! Cos they seems to be breeding out more outlets these days! Esprit? The outlet was done up nicely….but……without a single soul ? Why? I just don’t get it ?! Oh…probably the prices are too yiaky yiaky !! and people are sensitive with PRICE here. Yeah, i mean over the years, more shopping centres are popping out….but i don’t know why, i just don’t go crazy with shopping here. Probably i know half of the people in my town have seen that particular outfit, or that particular shoe, or…or…or…..so many fucking OR ssss!  So….shopping is really not the “thing” to do here.  Ok, for the more decent side of me, i think without the cinema & the shopping, can you still call a life, LIFE ?

Leaving with no better choice, i decided to do the ”home bound”. Meaning ? staying @ home most of the time. Doing what?? Watching soapies? Yeah, u heard it right…watching lotsa lotsa soapies!! & when i got so tired of soapies, i watch reality show on youtube!! You know those America Next Top Model, Project Runway……( I really still think i should be a fashion designer rather than a fucking Interior…..anyway, is there anything i can do about it now? NO ! ) So yeah, that basically sums up my life here. Sensing the big B already ?

For a not so decent side of me ……remember i am a GEMINI ?? Sometimes the whole 2 typo personality thing doesn’t really cling into my believes. But..reality check ? I think  i am a 2 sided person. NOTE: 2 sided person here doesn’t mean I’m 2 faced! It’s a complete 2 different words and meanings. I can be that ” Marry has a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb,Marry has a little lamb, little lamb, my fair lady” Typo person, for like many days….and then i don’t know if it’s the hormone, and then suddenly, I’m a completely different typo person for another few more days. And i do question myself, am i mentally sick? Like those people that possessed multiple personalities? But then again, i know exactly what my the other self was doing…..so blah….( and i thought i was doing a movie here…Ha! )

And so my not so decent side of me constantly reminding me that i should be more aggressive towards living a life. I should go out there grab all the good stuff, enjoy life a bit more, socialise a bit more, be good to myself a bit more. Don’t just live a laid back life. And @ this moment, i really think i should be listening to my not so decent side of self. Because i realised, staying @ home ain’t gonna open up my opportunities to a lot of things, let it be new friends, new way of life….you know ? Be wild, I’m not saying i need to smoke my way to death, or have sex with any passerby and treat that as PART of life. No matter the decent or the not so decent side of me still knows that is very wrong.

So, how should  i live a wild and open life but still stick to my dignity as being a decent person ?

You tell me.

Sometimes i wonder, what is the point of having a blog of my own? Do i have lotsa thing to tell people? Am i a celebrity that everybody would want to have a piece of me? Am i a good writer? What is my aim @ the end of the day ?

All the above mentioned is nothing close to who i am.

When i haven’t started my own blog, i kinda envied those that have a blog of their own. They write with their heart and soul, and it seems like they really DO enjoy having a blog! And it seems like a very easy thing to do! All you need is to write something up, with a few pictures and boom! There you have it ! Well….now having a blog of my own…how come i don’t feel that way @ all ?

Life is already a burden on it’s own, and now I’m putting an extra piece of weight on me, simply for the fun of it ? One part i simply don’t get it is, when you have your own blog, 1st of all you need to market it ? Visiting lots and lots of people’s blog, just for the exchange of a few hellos in the chatting box ? And then ? What’s next ? The next day, you just have to do everything all over again. If this is really the reason of having a blog, then i really don’t see the point.

After rounds and rounds of thinking and analysing, i guess all i’m asking is to have some genuine readers. As some of you might notice, i no longer go visiting as often as i used to.  Because i simply don’t see the point of doing so. But for some genuine readers that i already have,  I really do appreciate you guys! You guys are just simply the reason why i’m still keeping this blog alive!!

Anyway, this is just my ” Thought of the day” , actually i think i should change my title to “Thought of the day” instead of  “Wonder” ……Oh well…..

I don’t know what i’m going get out of this entry, but i guess having to think things through once in a while is considered to be a healthy thing to do???

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Alrighty guys!! Stay tune for my next post!!! Hohoho!!

What is Byoonin?? It means a sick person in Japanese. Just like the poor little girl in the picture above. Why did i choose this picture and have a title I am a byoonin?? Because i’m sick for so many days and still haven’t recover YET!!!!!

I’m currently having swollen tonsils with lots & lots of ulcers covering on my tonsils, can you imagine the pain?? I’ve been having this sickness for quiet sometimes, and doctor actually advise me to remove my tonsils!! Yiaks….that sounds even more painful!!

What do you guys think?? Should i remove my tonsils?? I wonder if there’s any side effects to removing the tonsils?? mmmmmm……..

Anyway guys, i’ll update as soon as i can once my tonsils are back to it’s comfort zone.