If parents can have one single wish for their kids, i think they will wish their kids to have a life like mine. Oh wait, i’m not saying i’m such a role model for the young kids these days. I’m basically claiming how BORING, yes the big B is my life.
Am i timid ? Am i shy ? I basically don’t know what’s wrong with me. Perhaps i’m kinda anti-social. And you know that’s a big word. Being anti-social after having to work for so many years? U must be kidding me ! But then again, what if i tell you i’m just plain LAZY ? All the woo haa & the hee haa is just not my cup of tea. I mean i used to love clubbings, it’s almost like if i missed out a Friday nite, my life just cannot go on ( What was i thinking?). I mean it wasn’t all that bad…hey fishing rich and handsome guys….which girl don’t enjoy that? BUT….i always ended up with a bucket full of ” Heh-bi ” you know what that means? ” heh-bi” = small prawns, and once they are cooked, they disappeared.
I mean, in a small town like this, what thing possibly would you be craving for? Listen up, for the more “decent” typo person, we have the cinema ( which is dirty and smelly, sometimes i wonder will there be any “left-over” sperm grueling on the stools? Get real! ), a rather “special treat” to a once in a while ice-blended drinks from Coffee bean, or caffeine digging @ Starbucks , shopping once in a while in a dogie fashion house, ( when i say dogie, it’s really dogie. I don’t know what kinda fucking fashion sense people have here.) Sorry folks, i can hear sentences like ” Then what the fuck are you still going there?” The sad truth is, there is no other fucking places to go ! Thank God for places like MNG…….and ….oh….Sorry, there’s only MNG. Surprisingly people here can take MNG!! Cos they seems to be breeding out more outlets these days! Esprit? The outlet was done up nicely….but……without a single soul ? Why? I just don’t get it ?! Oh…probably the prices are too yiaky yiaky !! and people are sensitive with PRICE here. Yeah, i mean over the years, more shopping centres are popping out….but i don’t know why, i just don’t go crazy with shopping here. Probably i know half of the people in my town have seen that particular outfit, or that particular shoe, or…or…or…..so many fucking OR ssss! So….shopping is really not the “thing” to do here. Ok, for the more decent side of me, i think without the cinema & the shopping, can you still call a life, LIFE ?
Leaving with no better choice, i decided to do the ”home bound”. Meaning ? staying @ home most of the time. Doing what?? Watching soapies? Yeah, u heard it right…watching lotsa lotsa soapies!! & when i got so tired of soapies, i watch reality show on youtube!! You know those America Next Top Model, Project Runway……( I really still think i should be a fashion designer rather than a fucking Interior…..anyway, is there anything i can do about it now? NO ! ) So yeah, that basically sums up my life here. Sensing the big B already ?
For a not so decent side of me ……remember i am a GEMINI ?? Sometimes the whole 2 typo personality thing doesn’t really cling into my believes. But..reality check ? I think i am a 2 sided person. NOTE: 2 sided person here doesn’t mean I’m 2 faced! It’s a complete 2 different words and meanings. I can be that ” Marry has a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb,Marry has a little lamb, little lamb, my fair lady” Typo person, for like many days….and then i don’t know if it’s the hormone, and then suddenly, I’m a completely different typo person for another few more days. And i do question myself, am i mentally sick? Like those people that possessed multiple personalities? But then again, i know exactly what my the other self was doing…..so blah….( and i thought i was doing a movie here…Ha! )
And so my not so decent side of me constantly reminding me that i should be more aggressive towards living a life. I should go out there grab all the good stuff, enjoy life a bit more, socialise a bit more, be good to myself a bit more. Don’t just live a laid back life. And @ this moment, i really think i should be listening to my not so decent side of self. Because i realised, staying @ home ain’t gonna open up my opportunities to a lot of things, let it be new friends, new way of life….you know ? Be wild, I’m not saying i need to smoke my way to death, or have sex with any passerby and treat that as PART of life. No matter the decent or the not so decent side of me still knows that is very wrong.
So, how should i live a wild and open life but still stick to my dignity as being a decent person ?
You tell me.