Come to think of it, it has been almost 8 years since i last ate something my sister cooked. I remembered while i was still suffering from mild anorexia while studying overseas, cooking for me has never been so difficult. I remembered when my sister was about to cook something, i will stand next to her and see how much oil she pours into the cooking, and when the amount of oil is more than the size of a 20 cents coin, i will stop her immediately. And the most common sentence that will purk out of my sister’s mouth is — ” How to cook like that!”

Indeed, now thinking back, i sometimes wonder how did i survive with just living on eating tasteless biscuits, oil free cooking, drinking corn soups everyday, and eating lots and lots of hawthorn for no reasons. While having lunch with my uni friends, i felt stressed. Simply because i don’t want to let them know I’m anorexic and that i don’t eat. So while with them, i will pretend to eat something that i think is of less fat, for example, Jellies. I remembered there was once where all of them decided to go have buffet @ the Sydney casino, and i was thinking to myself — Buffet!! Are u kidding me??? Just when i thought how am i suppose to pretend I’m actually a healthy eater, i saw Jellies !!! And so i took a big whole plate of it, sat in front of my friends and they all got a shock of their life. ” Why are you eating so much Jellies? You seem like treating the jellies like fried rice!!” Well, indeed that’s what i was thinking.

Parents, grandparents were worried, friends saw me and they all ask me the same question… : ” are u anorexic?” But strangely though, i thought i was looking really good during that time!! Pale white face with bonnie figure, not nice meh? While back home having my Uni vacation back then, parents forced me to eat! And you know what i did?? I will either throw or pour away the food secretly! Junk food was horror! Never touch those things! Not even a candy occasionally, no ice creams, no meat, no fried food, basically i eat nothing!! Except for clear soups and some oil free stuff.

How long was i being an anorexic?? i guess about 5-6 years. And now, hohoho……i eat almost anything!! Don’t ask me what changes me, but i guess the “anorexity” is definitely still in me! If i were to stay alone now, i swear i will be going back to be an anorexic! Sometimes i think the reason I’m eating is to show people I’m a healthy eater?

Anyway, After all these years, it’s nice to have a home cooked meal by my sister with the normal amount of oil, and having to enjoy the not so healthy 3 minute Korean noodle!!!

Home cooked meal 1 — Fried Zucchini with dried Shrimp ( Yum Yum!)

Home cooked meal 2 — Fried egg with can corn, the tomato sauce gave it an extra zest!

Home cooked meal 3 — Korean packed instant noodle, with extra veges!

No doubt, it was just a simple home cooked lunch, but i have to say, after 8 years, my sister still can’t cook very well!!! Hahaha, just kidding!!! Oopsss!! My sister better not be reading this. 

If it were 8 years ago, i don’t think i will appreciate the effort and might not even eat any of the above!! Well, i have to say i really enjoy eating what my sister cooked and let’s just hope that i will always feel positive about eating healthy and stay healthy!! Yay!